this is for my sake. questions asked by and answered by me.
1. When did you realize you were pregnant?
well close to jonas' birthday, the 14th of december. things started to get a little suspicious that weekend previous while we are jim and diana's home. ben sealed the deal by stating, after his mother had given us this adorable set of 3 ornaments to put pictures of our kids in, "See, we can only have 3 kids now."
2. So. . . was this planned?
no. and a little yes. we had not ever concluded a final yes or no to having another child. but i think we both knew it would happen - despite ben's weekly comments of being content with 3 children. :) timing is something that was definitely NOT planned. seriously, to be pregnant again in the 3rd trimester during my least-favorite of all seasons, summer? oh poor me.
3. So when are you due?
aug. 23rd. i'm 12 weeks along.
4. Are you showing yet?
ugh yes. we hadn't told the kids yet, but this morning jonas looked at my stomach and said, "you're going to have a baby." so then i told them. they were pretty darn excited; it was adorable. miles said, "i hope you have a girl for emmy!" cute, cute.
but i really wish i didn't have to show so early and so much. all my babies do are pop OUT. never up and down (no space). just OUT. oh man.
5. So do you have any ideas of what you are having? What you want to have?
no idea. never have had any "intuitions" either. oh what do i want? so hard! another boy would be delightful and fun. and we have a name already picked out. another girl would be super fun for emmy and all of us as emmy is just a pure, silly joy. BUT. . . emmy is our baby! she will have been the baby for almost 3 years - the boys were only the babies for 21 months. so it will be sad for us (us being ben and me) to have emmy lose her "status." but. . . if it is a boy then emmy will still be the Baby Girl. the Only Girl. so i don't know. i'm just glad i don't have to decide.
6. So you have names picked out?
we have a boy name - i have the middle name, too, but might need a few more months to convince ben of it. no girl names yet (that was so yesterday, i totally have a girl name all picked out now. ha). and we aren't really going to be telling many people until the babe arrives. :)
7. Any cravings, sickness, etc.?
i had some "waves" of nausea, especially in the evening, but that has passed and that was pretty much all. my stomach was quite tumultuous for lack of a better word, but didn't make me sick. just annoyed. my biggest thing has been fatigue. up until a few weeks ago, by 9am (i do get up at 5:30 mind you) i could have taken a 3-hour nap! i'm doing better, though, but still get tired. it doesn't help that when my thyroid was checked it was at it's highest level it's been - higher than when i was first diagnosed and not taking synthroid (the higher the value, the lower your thyroid).
cravings - well i pretty much always crave salty foods when i'm pregnant. like chips. and fast food. but i've only really caved in to my cravings for fast food twice - once at taco bell and once at mcdonalds. but i probably could have eaten there every day and been really happy. oh, i have also craved orange julius. YUM. but i still try to be cautious of what i eat. even though i'm already FAT. so not fair being 4'10 - sure i'll blame it on that.
8. Anything else?
if i'm going to be truthful i'll say that i am even holding my belly in in the above picture. seriously. seriously, i'm so mad. so mad. i'm only 3 monthse. argh. maybe miles' wish of me having twins will come to fruition (great word, love it!). but i doubt it. i just get (boo-hoo) so (moan) darn (sigh) big.